{"id":134,"date":"2019-06-17T12:48:16","date_gmt":"2019-06-17T16:48:16","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/blogs.ams.org\/mathmamas\/?p=134"},"modified":"2019-06-17T12:48:16","modified_gmt":"2019-06-17T16:48:16","slug":"no-not-yet","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/blogs.ams.org\/mathmamas\/2019\/06\/17\/no-not-yet\/","title":{"rendered":"No, not yet"},"content":{"rendered":"
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By Carrie Diaz Eaton<\/strong><\/p>\n

No.<\/span><\/p>\n

No, not yet.<\/span><\/p>\n

No, not yet, not now.<\/span><\/p>\n

Wait a few years,<\/span><\/p>\n

When you are wiser<\/span><\/p>\n

When you have more experience<\/span><\/p>\n

When you know better<\/span><\/p>\n

When you understand how it works.<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Why?<\/span><\/p>\n

Why do I?<\/span><\/p>\n

Why do I have to wait?<\/span><\/p>\n

For a few years,<\/span><\/p>\n

When I am tired<\/span><\/p>\n

When I am cynical<\/span><\/p>\n

When I know best<\/span><\/p>\n

When I understand exactly how it works?<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Keeping in mind my interests?<\/span><\/p>\n

Keeping in mind vested interests.<\/span><\/p>\n

I am a shiny new slate, untainted,<\/span><\/p>\n

ready to learn, ready to begin,<\/span><\/p>\n

ready to understand how it works<\/span><\/p>\n

Not wanting to see me fail?<\/span><\/p>\n

Not able to see me succeed.<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

No.<\/span><\/p>\n

No, not that.<\/span><\/p>\n

No, not that, not now.<\/span><\/p>\n

Wait a few more years,<\/span><\/p>\n

When you are sure<\/span><\/p>\n

When you are secure<\/span><\/p>\n

When you have time<\/span><\/p>\n

When you understand exactly what to do.<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Why?<\/span><\/p>\n

Why do I?<\/span><\/p>\n

Why do I have to wait?<\/span><\/p>\n

For a few more years,<\/span><\/p>\n

When I am older<\/span><\/p>\n

When I am comfortable<\/span><\/p>\n

When the sands are gone<\/span><\/p>\n

When I understand exactly what to do?<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Keeping in mind my interests?<\/span><\/p>\n

Keeping in mind your choices.<\/span><\/p>\n

I am an explorer, adventurous,<\/span><\/p>\n

energetic, eager, compassionate,<\/span><\/p>\n

ready to understand exactly what to do.<\/span><\/p>\n

Not wanting to see me fail?<\/span><\/p>\n

Not understanding failure.<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

No.<\/span><\/p>\n

No, not you.<\/span><\/p>\n

No, not you, not now.<\/span><\/p>\n

Wait just a few more years.<\/span><\/p>\n

When you make friends.<\/span><\/p>\n

When you learn the rules.<\/span><\/p>\n

When you know the language.<\/span><\/p>\n

When you understand where you fit in. <\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Why?<\/span><\/p>\n

Why do I?<\/span><\/p>\n

Why do I have to wait?<\/span><\/p>\n

For just a few more years,<\/span><\/p>\n

When I am popular<\/span><\/p>\n

When I conform<\/span><\/p>\n

When I can speak<\/span><\/p>\n

When I understand where I fit in? <\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Keeping in mind my interests?<\/span><\/p>\n

Keeping in mind your institutions.<\/span><\/p>\n

I bring passion and soul into my work, <\/span><\/p>\n

new perspectives, uncommitted by old allies,<\/span><\/p>\n

ready to understand exactly where I fit in.<\/span><\/p>\n

Not wanting to see me fail?<\/span><\/p>\n

Not wanting to see me.<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

No.<\/span><\/p>\n

No, not me.<\/span><\/p>\n

No, not me, not now.<\/span><\/p>\n

I waited those years,<\/span><\/p>\n

To be wise, to have more experience, to know better<\/span><\/p>\n

To be sure, to be secure, to have time<\/span><\/p>\n

To make friends, to learn the rules, to know the language<\/span><\/p>\n

Until I understood exactly how it works, what to do, and how to fit in<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Why?<\/span><\/p>\n

Why not me?<\/span><\/p>\n

Why not me, not now?<\/span><\/p>\n

I waited those years,<\/span><\/p>\n

I am tired, I am cynical, but I know best<\/span><\/p>\n

I am older, I am comfortable, but the sands are gone<\/span><\/p>\n

I am popular, I have conformed, but I can speak <\/span><\/p>\n

And I understand exactly how it works, what to do, and how to fit in.<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Keeping in mind my interests?<\/span><\/p>\n

Keeping in mind vested interests, my choices, my institutions.<\/span><\/p>\n

Not wanting to fail?<\/span><\/p>\n

No longer able to see success, to understand failure, to remember me.<\/span><\/p>\n

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Carrie Diaz Eaton is an Associate Professor of Digital and Computational Studies at Bates College. She is the mother of Gabriel (11), who loves cats, business, and learning new things, and Yudani (9), who loves pizza, swimming, and making the world more efficient.<\/em><\/p>\n

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